8 posts tagged “rant”

[RR] Trust

6 days ago
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warning: RR stand for REAL life RANT
it does not contain any entertainment relate info. it just my opinion of certain things in life. ~~this is my space~~. ~~i do what i want with it~~

trust should be value as 3 most important things in life aside from life itself, and love. some people can put their trust in others as early as the 1st meet and some can't even when their life is at stake. commonly, people give their trust to those who deserve it. by any means, it take hundreds of steps to build trust but just a little kick to crush it down. these people need reassurance that their trust do not end up being toast around like some sort of rubbish. because to them, it is something that is apart of themselves. in other words, it is a very sensitive issue and you wont want to mess up with their faith in you.

stop and sit. look at your own life and tell me, how much do you trust others? your parents, friends, strangers and most importantly yourself. i bet some people trust themselves more then anybody else in this world. that a wise thing to do because in the very end, you dont know what or how others think. you wont believe but there are people who trust others with all their life. those kind of people are awesome! being betrayed again and again does not affect their faith. amazing! they healed, they said. but it is purely a lie if you tell me, life is good no matter what happen because truth is, everyone hate it when they know that they had been lied to a.k.a their trust had no value.

seeing is believing. laugh. that is so innocence. believing every ounce of those are foolish. what we saw can be very well deceiving. how well people might be, never trust them 100 percent because the kindest person on earth had never exist.

you never have to have a brain to treasure others faith in you. what's needed is a heart. yes. a heart. that one thing that someone forget to bring with them in their walk of life. instead, they put it in a safe place. that is why they can see others frustrated face without any guilt. may be they feel guilty at some point but it never can compared. face it, when you know you're guilty, you tend to defend yourself with lies. and a lie need to be covered by more lies. in the end, life is full of lies. finding the truth is like looking for a diamond at the beach. it takes times to be discovered. and when that happen, a joy for knowing the truth can turn to break the heart.

i dont really know what am i rambling about. just that, this 'trust' thingy kept on nagging me to the point that my head hurt and my lack-of-sleep nights are back. ....talking about trust again..

p.e.a.c.e

First episode of..

Jul 11, 2008
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warning:contain spoiler..

Code Blue
how can i put it? it's amazing to watch the doctors. the flight doctors are amazing~!
Yamapi is still Yamapi. his character in this one does not differ much with him in Kurosagi and Dragon Zakura. i am dissapointed! yappari, Akira is still my fav Yamapi's character.
is Gakki the second lead? seems like it but i love Erika more. the clumsy doctor is cute. and funny too.
i thought i read it somewhere that Erika is the one who play a daughter of successful doctors. turns out, it's Gakki.
wonder which one will fall for Yamapi's character. who is it again? Aikawa Kousaku,right? huhuhu..this will be interesting..
*patiently waiting for 2nd episode subs for more Erika and the cute doctor~*

Maou
it's A W E S O M E ! !
As expected from combination of Riida and Toma.
the story line is good. although it's quite confusing, at first, to figure who was the one holding the knife in the school students incident..
Riida is a kakkoi devil ne~..haha..he's great in the suit.
Toma Ikuta plays a different character from his previous, successfully. he's a great actor! compare him in HanaKimi, Honey&Clover and this one. it's totally different him. unlike Yamapi. no offence please coz it is a fact.
*ok,let's stop here about them. i sounds like a DHF of Toma here but i dont mind*
i'm TOTALLY hooked to this one.
i can't stand the fact that i have to wait for the next episode. time seems fly so slow..

one more episode to finish Gokusen 3. i should stop watching this jdorama in the 1st three episodes. the story line is so annoyingly the same in each one. i just make sure to finish it becoz of Ren or Miura Haruma..haha..typical me!

< life rant >
i totally hate those who think they're angels.
i dont know how this sem going to be. i'm nearly nuts with her act. oh pleazzz~!!!

ja~!

total rant of the week..

May 16, 2008
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economy, financial, accounting and whatever that related to money-profit-cost and etc, are plain .....boring,i think. looking back in secondary school when i decide to take accounting, i didn't take it becoz i like it but becoz i have no other choice. biology is not me. learn it about a week, i still didn't get anything at all.
arghh!!!!!
engineering economic, i have this feeling that i'm gonna hate and fail this subject. last night's test was a disaster~!
oh God, please spare me!
well, i guess i can say that to understand the concept is easy but to understand what the heck the questions want, make me angry with the lecturer. why cant he ask in simple English? SIMPLE ! i was reading the question like 40 times but still didn't get the idea of the questions.
i was thinking to write this last night but i was too devastated and i need a good night sleep to calm myself.
but still...
arghh!!!!!
i spent two my day off studying and the end result...(T_T)...
anyway, hope he consider a second test or a make up test since almost ALL of us cant answer. hopefully. *praying hard*
arghh!!!!!
i HATE chatterbox people. seriously,cant they read the atmosphere?

hmm...
i just want this sem to end. i cant stand it anymore. that's all.

ja~!!

Reflect it yourself...

May 6, 2008
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something really small happened last night. yes, it is really, really small. if i'm an outsider, i pretty sure that i just laugh at this entry. BUT it never be an ok with me if it involve trust. it takes million steps to build a trust but just one tinny bit of kick that will crash it down.

its never take your pride down the drain when you ask first if you want something. it will happen only when you get caught red handed. asking for permission for something what is not yours is common sense. saying that you steal is a little bit too harsh. so how can i put it so i feel like it's NOTHING!?

if you're 2 or 3 years old, its a big OK but when you're alive for nearly 2 decade and still didnt learn what is wrong and what is right, then i just like to assume that your head has loose some screws of sense...that make me feel better.

for not directly angry with you is something what i decide to do. not making a fuss over something as small as that makes me think that i'm matured enough but deep inside, there are something burning. i'm really frustrated with you. i have never thought that you'll stooped as low as that.

i think i'm more like Shuji. i pretend that everything is OK with me to a point that you can say that i'm a hypocrite. yes, i am! so what? if i have to be hypocrite so that everyone is happy, its fine with me.

i make this entry public so people who read this and know that they are like 'you', i hope that they will reflect of what they have done. it doesnt matter if it is small or big thing, what is wrong never gonna be right.

to those with ego as big as Mount Everest, listen here. we live in world that we need each other. and you'll never have everything so if you need something from others, put your ego in your pocket and ask!

the range of boredom

May 1, 2008
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i'm bored!

how far can this boredom make me feeling like i'm boring?

duh~!

that's all.
thank you.

what's up with those..

Mar 4, 2008
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..lyrics?
i'm really out of my mind when i said i like 'Ai no Matadoru'..just bcoz i didnt know the lyric back then..
it is so .."R"..what are they thinking? well, with what happened, i dont think they even 'think'..!!
WHAT EVER~!!
wanna say it out loud here coz this is my place. they are so...S.E.N.G.A.L ! ! !
and what's up with Shige in 02.03.08 SC? i know some people love it but NOT me! being a smart-a** and doing something like that..i didnt watch the SC yet but with the talks around, i just dont wanna watch it.
plus 'Bambina'..(--# )
they are just plain sengal!!! ~~i love this word. blame it on Dunia Baru!~~
yes, i'm a closed minded person. and i'm ok with it.
why ~~a lot of~~ some of JE's songs are like "that"? like Arashi-'Kitto Daijoubu'. i actually love the song but after knowing the lyric, it just hits me on the face.
owh, forgot to mention latest HEYx3 with NEWS...Tegoshi is waaayyy too young to write that kindda lyric..there is one part of the show when Yamapi cover his face with his hands and watching that i wonder what he'd been thinking? is he just embarrassed by the thing that they discussing or by the '~~plain stupid~~' news that Ryo come up with?
there is no more love for NEWS except for Massu. i hope there wont be anything that will make NEWS's 'switch' completely off..
anyway, congrats to them for being 2nd to Kinki Kids for having 1st ranked singles. and sharing the place with another artist..

~uuwee~

Nov 15, 2007
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hoho..holiday!!

i like them..love them..but when u used to get busy with things and suddenly u get some free time doing nothing, u get bored as hell ! ! all i've been doing is eating, sleeping, watch tv, eat some more, watch tv while eating, sleep, eat.........(_ _).............so bored ! !

anyway, before i rant ~~like crazy~~ even more, i like to say this,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO

TEGOSHI YUYA

&

NISHIKIDO RYO

i didnt forgot. ~~didnt have the energy to type anything here~~. i just browsing through some page and there're so many people celebrating Tegoshi's birthday. he really got lots of fans this one.

i heard that Koyama will be on [Yukan Club] drama. Is it true? wanna see..wanna see!!! i even watched [Nurse Aoi] coz of him. he had so little role in dramas, so if he is in any of drama, it's great!

i havent get my hands on NEWS(this spelling is still strange to me) new single or the album. have some problems with my laptop and my home PC decided to have some problems too. argh!! but omedetou to them as both get to 1st rank on Oricon Chart. yeay! *doing the victory dance*

i really wanna see NEWS's Never Ending Wonderful Story DVD.*cries*..sob..sob..*cries*

i've finished reading the HP and the Deathly Hollow. the ending, the '19 years later' part, i really think that it is not necessary. i find it is so lame to end it like that. all this years, i was thinking that i would end with Harry's death or some important character's death like Hermione or Ron. doing that also have risk. fans who couldnt accept it can get angry and do so and so. in the end, it was good. now, no more HP book. i've to find new good books..

recently i notice that i havent read any Malay novel in.. i dont know how many years. it was so boring i take my brothers Malay literature's book and read it. finish it in just one night..huhuhu..(^^,)..

my time is running out so chow!!

really..?DUH! ! !

Sep 15, 2007
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one of my friend asked me, why people write diary online a.k.a have blog? i kinda shocked when she asked. the fact that she didnt know i have one make me more curious..

in the attempt to answer her, i find myself blank..."why??".........................argh!!..i dont know. different people have different reason...as for me, i just wanna put my thought where it save and its free...right?..lol

2nd part of the semester started already and its no different from the 1st part..exam,assignmt, bla, bla, bla...i think i have to take a break from watching dramas for a while..thats what i think i can do..reality is,i still cant do it. i'm addicted!!

this remind me of what one of my lecturer said in class yesterday..he was like always,yesterday, teaching with the speed of bullet train(or faster, i have to struggle to copy notes. everytime after his class, i feel like i just run 5km non-stop & he is annoying).. at the end of the class, he said, "in order to have one thing, we have sacrifice the other. we just cant have both"....i was like (o.0)..that was kinda unexpected from him. he also said that in the way to be what he is now, he have give up many things. just think what those who even succeeded than him..ma nee..

thinking once, he is SO negative. yes we can have all the thing we want if we tried.

thinking twice, yeah..he's right. up till now, i, myself have put aside most thing that i wanna do to be where i am now....and i've been regreting it everytime.. but it cant be helped..u know, like choosing two roads in front of us. once we choose, there's no turning back..

//end of the stupid rant//

drama>> just finish Hanayome to Papa. it a cute drama, that all i can say. currently watching First Kiss. it just becoz of Mao-chan. but the story is quite funny and i like it.

Arashi>> have watch their Happiness PV..its cheerful and happy..but everytime i listen to the song, i didnt hear 'Happiness' but 'Happiday'..its really the lyric or its my ear that have problem..*giggles*

NewS>> nothing new about them but looking forward for their new single.

[p/s to Dini: dont ask asked me again and make me choose between Arashi and NewS..it hard...]